I know..It's been forever since my last post here..but i have been doing a lot of thinking..about where i am..how far i have come..where i want to go.. One thing i do know is that i'm my own worst enemy. Sometimes i wonder why can't i just love me the way i am. I'm not that overweight. Hell everyone i know always tells me i look great..but don't your friends have to say that...lol..I'm really going to try and be more middle of the road and work on loving me..Also no more tracking calories..i'm giving Fitday a break..this doesn't mean i'm going crazy with my eating..i just want to try and not think about it all the time.Also i'm cutting down on my time on all the fitness boards i go too.I'm reading more now..i'm on the 3rd book in the Twilight series and i'm playing games online and with my Wii..and poor Muffin is being walked to death.

I do know that all this bodybuilding way of eating..working out...spending all that time on the boards has really messed me up. So now my main focus will just be working on my health. I have stopped weighing myself everyday and just use the BF program on the Wii Fit to see how i'm doing. With that you don't have to weigh yourself.

I have a race on Thanksgiving. It's an 8k. I've been running 3-4 miles on the treadmill the last few days to get ready for it. I enjoying running on the treadmill now because i just go at my own easy pace. No crazy intevals or speeds. Just what i feel. I just feel happier now..and i think that's what it's all about...