I've been thinking a lot on this topic the last fews days..mainly because i've been binge eating. Deep down i've known i've had this problem for awhile but never really addressed it..or wrote about it. Yesterday was the worst. I'm to ashamed to even write what all i ate..and nobody..not Steve or my daughter know because i eat all this when i'm alone. I guess nobody can really tell how much i eat now..back when i weighed 220 everybody knew...they could look at me and tell..now i make sure i work it all off..and i don't eat like that everyday..just somedays. I try and keep my trigger foods out of the house but you know you can't control what others bring in the house.
I do believe some of my problem is the way i think about foods..as good and bad. I think chips, cookies and candy are bad...so whenver i'm around them i eat all i can...thinking well if i eat them all now they will be gone and it will not be here for me to eat tomorrow...crazy ...huh..
I'm going to start using this journal as a place to come and be honest about my day..thanks for listening..
3 comments:
You're brave to be honest, and hope you will continue to feel safe and affirmed and accepted.
Thank you for the support..it means a lot :)
Big hugs to you for your honesty. Weight loss is an interesting journey and one where you need to be brutally honest with youself to be successful. Remember that every day is a new day and you can always start fresh if you have a momentary lapse in resolve.
I too struggle with binges at times and it is affirming to read how others pull themselves through them. Thanks for sharing.
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